It was Saturday, Feb 25th, 2017 around 5 in the evening. I was getting ready to leave work and go meet out with "Tom". Was I excited? Not really... My plan was to meet up with him at the bar of this restaurant so it wouldn't feel like a "date" and so I can get out whenever I felt like leaving.
There I was, about to walk in, and there he was, waiting outside for me... OK he is cute, I Thought to myself. We exchanged the awkward "hi" and started walking in. He asks for a table (I didn't object). We get to our table and ask for some drinks. Let's just say I hadn't had any food in the day, so maybe drinking a strong Marg wasn't a good idea.
We started with small talk: life, work... you know. I felt pretty comfortable talking to him (maybe because of the Marg) as if I had known him for a while. Very out of character for me, I spoke my mind and laid it all out there. We talked about the fact that although I lived by myself, I was still in the process of getting a divorced (which didn't happen until almost exactly a year from this date), what happened in my past relationship, we talked about my daughter (who was then 7 months old) and to be honest, I was talking to him as if I was talking to a friend. Not once did it cross my mind that maybe I could be turning him off... I mean if that was the case, then oh well! He told me about himself. He was then starting a new career which was exciting! He seemed like the type of guy who knew what he wanted and who was not looking to just go on dates. He was in it to find someone long term. That's the vibe I got, at least. He had gone on few other dates through Match but nothing very successful.
The date felt right! It lasted over 2 hours and as we left, he drove me to my car and planned on seeing each other the next day!
The next day came and we met out for dinner at a Mexican Restaurant near my job. We got to our table and instead of sitting across from me, he sat right next to me...that was different, but I liked it! We were there for about an hour and as dinner ended and we walked to the cars, it happened...he grabbed my hand and pulled me close to him and kissed me right outside of the restaurant! (I am not into PDA, but it felt so perfect). From this point on, we were seeing each other EVERY SINGLE DAY... It was not even a month after when he asked me to be his girl! I was not seeing anyone else and didn't want to see anyone else, but for some reason, it all felt too fast and too perfect and I was kind of skeptical about him so I didn't say yes right there and then...for 3 months I was really trying to figure out what was wrong with him before I even thought about letting my guard down.
I am not sure if people go through this, but being that I was in such a long relationship that drove me almost to depression, in a way I was not looking to find "love". Not because I didn't want it, but because I felt as if I didn't deserve it... and it took me a while to realize that I deserved the greatest kind of love, and it was then that I let my guard down...and then I met his family and let's just say it was the cherry on top!
3 months in, was I right for letting my guard down, though?